— ― George Eliot (via psych-quotes)
Tom Perfect Hiddleston (via loki-the-snark-world)
In which Tom Hiddleston has to state the obvious because guys just don’t get it
IN MY BRAIN.
So don’t think I forgot about it. I’ve been wanting to share what I’ve found for days. The problem is that I’m a very busy student.
QUESTIONS WITHOUT ANSWERS = NO CLOSURE
I was used and taken advantage of by someone I truly thought was my friend. I really loved him and did my best to do right by him. I loved his family. His mom, sisters, and brother were cool with me. At one point, I even thought that we would end up together.
It’s been almost two months, and I’m still trying to heal. There was no closure involved in this healing process at all. I’m still confused about what I should really do about this whole thing. I’m hoping and praying that I don’t say a cross word or give a cross look next time I see my offender in church.
I posted on Facebook yesterday a simple question that could get no definite, direct answer.
I asked when the hurt will stop and when I would be able to look back on the troubling situation and not feel anger and resentment anymore. In the comment section, I was reminded about the lesson on forgiveness in Sunday School from two weeks ago (which I think is a load of bull). I was encouraged not to give up. I was even offered an invitation to text about it.
However, no one could tell me when the pain would stop. I don’t blame anyone, because who knows?
When a person hurts you deeply, it’s because you cared about them very much. If a stranger—a person you don’t know from Adam—does something offensive, you could either take it to heart or laugh, but it doesn’t mean as much. In the end, an offense committed by a stranger is rarely a scratch on your heart, much less a wound. What strangers do or say will never matter as much as what friends or loved ones do.
When you care for someone, you care about what he or she does, how he or she is doing and feeling, and hope that he or she holds you in the same esteem that you hold him or her. However, not everyone reciprocates and shows their love to the same extent that you show yours. Some have no love for you and even pretend to care about you because you have something they need, but they don’t invest in getting to know and love the person that you are. To the pretenders, you are little more than a resource.
The Lord wants His children to forgive as they have been forgiven of Him. However, what does that all entail? What does offering forgiveness, seeking forgiveness, and receiving forgiveness look like? Why is it so hard for most of us to forgive others? Is it just the way our hearts work, or do we somehow make it harder for ourselves needlessly?
I’ll write more about forgiveness as the day goes by, but I just wanted to put this out there for anyone reading so they can know that they aren’t the only one who struggles to forgive people despite it being the “right” thing to do. I’m praying that the Lord would grant the readers peace and enable their heart to see and love people past the broken lenses of their own hurt…
Please pray that He would do the same for me, in Jesus’ name.
Oh my goodness, guys.
I’m so touched and humbled by the fact that I left Tumblr with less than 90 followers and came back to see 131 of them.
Honestly, I didn’t know I would have so many followers on my blog. I’m sorry I haven’t been active. I’ve just so been busy with school, looking for jobs, and getting my life together in light of some disappointing things that I have discovered, with help from my friends and my Heavenly Father.
My birthday passed on Monday, and I’m 23 now! WOOOHOOO!
My faith in God has been tested and tried, coming out purer and purer. I’ve found that you can come across things in life that make you question your faith and everything you have ever believed about God, even life itself… and if you keep everything in perspective, you’ll find yourself depending less and less on “ideas” and “second-hand testimonies” of Jesus to encourage you and you’ll open up to experiencing Him, the actual Person. Trials hurt, but they also open you up to receiving Truth and Love in His purest form… that is, if you’re looking for that.
Anyway, I just wanted to say thanks for all the love, guys. You all are amazing. I’ll try to keep this blog active this year by writing more often.